Sunset with punkies07 at Badian beach, Cebu

I got this poem from a blog which I read during break times at work. I find it amazing and just out of the blue, I thought of forwarding the poem to the rest of my previous team. I told them to read it coz' it's nice. I got several feedbacks right away. Ria said she did not understand it (I don't know what's wrong with her..gehehehe) and Debbie said it was nice but the tagalog words are too deep and she's nose-bleeding. Some wondered if that day was part of the "Linggo ng Wika" celebration. And most amazingly, Riley said 'cge bye!'.

After few exchange of emails, Ria sent a message telling me to translate the poem to English. For unknown reasons, my mind started to define each word and tried translating them. I was also on the phone with my customer trying to fix her computer and we are also discussing stuff about 'veganism' (yep, she is a vegan and obviously she doesn't eat animal meat or anything made of meat) while I was translating the poem.

With all those distractions and weird feedback from my perks, here is the outcome of my unknown desire to translate the poem which I find so worth keeping and worth reading in Tagalog (sigh).

Please draw a deep breath...


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Pathetic



SUBMIT TO UNCERTAINTY,
ENGRAVE TO THE PROMISE OF LOVE,
AND NAIL IT TO WIDENESS OF THE OCEAN SHORE.
TO THY ABSTRACT THOUGHTS,
TO A NEW DAY SURELY NOT TO COME,
FOR I'LL FOREVER WAIT, IN THE PLACE WHERE OUR LOVE ABOUNDS...




the original poem in tagalog...
credits to wanderingcommuter!


PATETIK

ibigay sa kawalan
ikubli sa pangako
at ipako sa lawak ng dalampasigan
sa mga abstraktong salita
sa bukas na hindi naman darating
at sa tagpuang patuloy ka pa rin hihintayin






I love this poem.
I swear!!!!!

Can I go now?




Letting go has always been a doomed ending for me. I always hate to let go of things I already had been used to. Hope there would come a day when I could just say, "I don't want this, no more! I quit! (stomp feet, turn my back, leave.) But that's quite impossible for the kind of person like me. I am very picky or choosy when it comes to things that I choose to love or like and when I get to love it, am truly loving it - like mcdo. I feel sad when life tends to take it away from me.

However, this is not the time for me vent out my sad emotions. Life is a party, so let's rock! This what I call "The sudden change of Lance's status quo."

This post is not intended to be a sad one -- but this is serious. I don't want to be mean but I just don't think am the only one to blame. I had enough of my tears and my heart is already naive.

Never been a dumb dude, no am not dense. I just had a slight lack of common sense. I am just fighting for what I think is right. Ohhh, I remember our student publication's slogan when I was still on college - "we wanted to be liked, but we don't mind being hated if that's the price for telling the truth." And yes, I am telling the truths about my thoughts.

Darn! These stupid and mean love songs just suddenly make me feel strong. I just can't get over listening to them right now.


Can I go now? Yep, I need to go now. It hurts to say goodbye but I need to do this -- not for you but for myself. I don't need to exhaust myself in still trying to stick to this. "What's the point of trying to meet you in the middle? You got your point of view, there's nothing I can do. Can't change your mind, can't leave it all behind. You're living in the past! We talk and talk, discuss for hours. About how it should be - why is it all me? Don't wanna fight. Don't wanna waste my time. Baby just can't relax. I'm moving on, moving on. "



PS

I had gotten few feedbacks about my recent post on realizations, et al and it so much intrigue me which made me to think that I appeared to become a melancholic jerk and a darn looser to all that read it. Well, you know, not really. LOL! It was a nice realization and I am still living up to it. I changed, basically.



Then again, let me sing to you my farewell song...

Go on girl...
(listen till the end of the song - it's mean!)

Microsoft corporation has set a new trend in advanced software technology. It's the what they tagged as 'the power'. 'the magic', and 'the possibilities'. Read on and explore Microsoft Surface! I am working for Dell computers and it so happened that Microsoft is it's manufacturer for the computers' Operating System. Microsoft has gained such a number of demeaning feedbacks about the 'not so newly released' Windows Vista Operating System - from slow performance to incompatibility issues and 'you name it'. But now, they probably could set a new trend on software technology and take away the 'vista impression' from the consuming public. In a nutshell, MS Surface is actually something not as a typical computer looking device. It's a software, or say Operating System Beta, developed by Microsoft Corporation (which we all know is owned by Bill Gates) which is being operated in a typical “sosyal” chess table or a plain glass table. If you could still remember those movies like Matrix, Mission Impossible 1-3 and the recent movie IronMan, then you would be fascinated how amazing technologies used in those movies could possibly really come to reality through MS surface. Here, you could practice the power of your hands – without the aid of an optical or wireless mouse this time. It's actually more of a touchscreen technology but the only difference is that it could give you more options than merely letting your hand do the clicking in lieu of a mouse. With this one, it's not just doing work-arounds using your fingers but you could also place some MS Surface recognized devices on the table and make it as if it was attached. The speed that it could take to make to devices to run in software is definitely faster than connecting devices with cables. There are so many other options that you could do with this, as they say, it's the magic, power and of course, possibilities. However, it is not being sold to home users or open for market consumption for now, and hey, it's also very costly that a normal 'techy' person wouldn't mind to buy it just to show it off and boast it to his peers. It's basically offered to big companies and or organizations which would be useful for their multi-tasked applications and processes. That's all I could say for now. Just please watch the video for more information about this innovative development in technology. However, here are few questions randomly popping up in my thoughts right now: 1.What would happen is you spill water or soda on the table, or say under table? 2.Microsoft is a software company, I suppose. Then who would be the manufacturer of the table or the device used for this? Hmmm.. I want it to be Dell, but I just hope that they won't mess it up. (geehh) 3.Do you think this could actually become an insult for the 'disabled community', especially for those that unfortunately doesn't have fingers or hands? (this is a stupid thought, I know)

Today I realized many things. I have been through so many ups and downs in my life but today has marked a definitely unforgettable realization experience. I had been lost. I didn't know where am leading. I know I could have done better in those good ol' days and I wish I could take everything back to the way they were and make everything right again. Thoughts of the past have haunted me and I can't seemingly move forward for the future. These salty tears has been drowning me for days now. But everything was a mistake. I need to straighten things out now and today, yes today, will be the start of it.


I realized that love is always a cherished thing, something holy. It's something that needed respect and trust. I don't have to be perfect in love and I don't necessarily have to seek love - "Let infatuation die a natural death, and give birth to TRUE LOVE in its own time." Just love and forget the reason why.


I am sad, but I am happy about it. I realized that sadness is indeed self-inflicted. I have options in life and I should be wise enough to choose what is best and right for the situation. I should choose to be happy but I could cry sometimes. Salty tears give spice to a bland tasted life, but I should always make it a point to remember that melancholy is an act of sadness, but it's not a habit.



I also need to die every once in a while. I realized the life is not eternal and death is something to be prepared of. I thought of dying every now and then but I never thought of killing my self. That is sick! I am not pathetic and insane! I just thought that if dying would mean breaking away from a sad world, then dying should something that I should as well care about. It sometimes drive me to make better things while I am still alive and diligently work and work and work for me and my family. I know people will miss me when I am gone. (It always makes me cry when I think otherwise)


I am unique. I have realized that people are different. I really hate to be asked to give out something unique in me because ever since I never had thought of anything that could separate me from the rest. But now I knew that we are indeed unique from each one. It has been more defined by our mixed characters and identity. I am different in how I respond to the situation and I am different with how I feel everyday. I am different because I am sad and not all people feel the level of sadness that I feel nor the things and thoughts that run in my sad mind. I am different because this is me.


I just care too too much. I realized that I should not worry much about how people will feel or think about me. I am old enough for my actions and I should also know what are the consequences and be ready for it. Caring too much for everything has always been my weakness. But now I realized that caring for myself first and for those that I love is not bad after all. I just need to always acquire fair judgment on everything. They would understand and eventually respect the way I live my life. Society has it's own share of judgment and prejudice, therefore, I should know where to stand and how to respond to it.


It's always not too late to apologize. Apology eventually comes after one has already sinned or has already done something wrong. Well, I cannot really apologize first and do the sin afterwards. Therefore it's just right to say that it's not really late to apologize for any mistake that I have done. Time may also heal wounds. Apology after the wounds have already been healed may sometimes not anymore be necessary. I could just probably do something else that could patch up the scar left by my mistakes.


Apologize. I realized that I should learn to accept mistakes - that I could not always make things right. I should not be prideful enough to make excuses to cover my wrong doings. I should know that owning a mistake and asking for forgiveness or pardon for it will not make me a person of lesser value and my apologies come with a certain promise that I will never be like that or do that again.




Cute ko! Lol! I just realized that keeping good outside appearance is something I also have to put attention on. Watch out for my new hairstyle! nyahahaha

I am sorry. I would like to apologize to those people who's heart was hurt by me- for those feelings I have neglected, good opportunities wasted, good friends forgotten and fun moments forsaken. Pardon my broken and unfulfilled promises, my selfishness and wrong doings.

I am not perfect, I know. I will be better this time, I promise.

Ever wished you could be everyone's shining glory? Well then, now is the time to grab it and you should eventually hold on to it. I mean, grab it and hold it literally! (just through photography art though) Holding the Sun on your hands is pretty much amazing and HOT, I suppose.

Photography Art has never been this great. Here are some pics I got from an email from work. I don't think the people included in these photos will sue me for posting these pictures on my blog. I just thought that it is for public since it's distributed to emails worldwide anyway.

So much for the talking....

Such a nice song! It makes my heart humble with so much joy. It makes me feel assured that someone is there, beyond the infinity, that could give me unconditional love. Even if the whole world will ignore me, forsake me or hate me, my Angel will always be there for me. Through it all, baby, through it all....... Angels sung in American Idol by David Archuleta original by: Robbie Williams I sit and wait Does an angel contemplate my fate And do they know The places where we go When were grey and old cos I have been told That salvation lets their wings unfold So when Im lying in my bed Thoughts running through my head And I feel the love is dead Im loving angels instead And through it all she offers me protection A lot of love and affection Whether Im right or wrong And down the waterfall Wherever it may take me I know that life wont break me When I come to call she wont forsake me Im loving angels instead When Im feeling weak And my pain walks down a one way street I look above And I know Ill always be blessed with love And as the feeling grows She breathes flesh to my bones And when love is dead Im loving angels instead And through it all she offers me protection A lot of love and affection Whether Im right or wrong And down the waterfall Wherever it may take me I know that life wont break me When I come to call she wont forsake me Im loving angels instead And through it all she offers me protection A lot of love and affection Whether Im right or wrong And down the waterfall Wherever it may take me I know that life wont break me When I come to call she wont forsake me Im loving angels instead

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Originally uploaded by punkies07-Lance

The picture is weird, I know. I just can't find any other items which are preloaded on my phone that I could put in this picture. The cloud, with the symbols inside it, just really won't fit any other side of the picture but only in the middle, making it to point to somewhere down there. lol!

I just love the simple 'painting' effect. I could do a lot of manuevers and editing on my W610i Walkman Sony Ericson Phone. Sometimes I would take some pictures and put frames on them using my phone. This is what I do when I'm quite tired listening to my songs on this walkman phone or tired of taking vanity shots of myself.

This picture is taken at our house while I was sitting for a while after a tiresome long hours of travel from Cebu City to Canlaon City, my hometown here in Negros. I went home alone since my sister, Lei, and her husband is on duty while I was able to file a one day vacation leave and followed with two days off. I so much enjoyed my homecoming. I was amazed how our little Buchochoy at the house, Lenard, has grown so fast. He even can walk and run fast now. Such a cuddly kid, indeed.

This is just one of the things one could do on his or her cellphone. Some phones could even do more. By the way, I hope I could buy a China Phone. The one with dual SIM card capacity, with Television and music and video player and of course a stand out camera. I don't know how it appealed to me, but I just really can't stand not getting it - by this year or so. I don't care about the quality. All I am after are the cool features I could get for such an unbelievably low price. If it get's damaged, then maybe it would not be hard for me to get another one because it's cheap after all.

I Hate it. Do I really have to do this all the time?
Well. geeeeehhhhh...
Am doing it anyway. LOL!
I hope this will work though!

Punk Generation Revolution
Originally uploaded by punkies07-Lance

Anybody from Cebu would be familiar with this picture, I suppose. I keep seeing this painted picture anywhere along the streets of the city. It's painted on the walls on the highways so many people could see it. What could it be for? What do they want to imply?

The picture for me speaks a lot of thought provoking issues. The person covered with some kind of a "bandana" looks like the Philippines National Hero Jose P. Rizal. The print on the bandana is pretty much stylish and very youthful. The eyes are fierce and the image looks very strong.

I figured, could this be a sign? Could this be something "political" with regards to the current Philippine Economy Crisis? Who could be the person or group of people behind this?

Does this mean that the youth today are already oppressed from freedom?

It's time to open our eyes and minds, people!
Look and see.
Think.
What does it tells you?

this is what happens when there is a long queue in ATMs
Originally uploaded by punkies07-Lance

"Is it you? Is it you? Baby, you're the one I've been waiting for. Could you be the one I need? Could you be the one for me?", so goes the song "Is it you" performed by a hot hollywood half-pinay chick named Cassie.

Lately I've been thinking about what has happened to me. I've been so much infatuated with somebody not really my type. hahahah I don't know but the feeling is just getting over me. I actually do not want to talk about this here. I know it was a mistake. She was even the one who told me that. I am just one of her mistakes now. *sigh*

That was past. I'm leaving her behind now. She can move on, I suppose. It's time to meet ourselves at the crossroads and wisper our sweet goodbyes.

I so much love my girlfriend right now (although she's been giving me headaches lately..Ü). At least, I know she is my type.

let's skip the fairy tale
Originally uploaded by punkies07-Lance

I just thought of blogging also my Photo. xo
This is self-inflicted. :)
Walay magbuot.
hehehe

soul searching
Originally uploaded by Amateur Aravind

Am at loss for words.
Just one of the most meaningful and touching pictures I could have ever seen.
You see? It's amazing how one could realize that this could symbolize a very moving piece of art. I am using this windows' feature almost everyday at work but I just never realized this until now.

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that
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Finding something is not always as easy as CTRL+F.


*sigh* (make it a deeper one please)

Try something
Originally uploaded by Staurland - Nor

Too late to apologize..

**just got really nothing to say**

Share to me what's on your mind so maybe I can talk about that here in my blog. *wink*

Avatar The Last Air Bender Book 2 Tierra
Originally uploaded by mike_vanhelsin@yahoo.com.mx

"Earth, Water, Air and Fire. These are the four elements with corresponding nations in the Avatar world. People from every nation has their own unique skills. Water Nation does water bending. Air nation does air bending..And so does the other two nations. Their world was peaceful, not until the Fire nation attacked......"

And so goes the adventures of the four little kids, each from different nation, who are trying to help develop the young avatar (master of all four bending skills) to defeat the fire nation and to stop them from conquering the whole avatar world.

I was gettin so addicted to this. I started watching this when I was still at college. Our Webmaster in the publication, Pierce, used to download the clips from the internet using Torrent and then everybody in the publication would one by one watch it. I can still remember before that I was always (or OK..could just be very exaggerated..often) late in my Economics122 subject because I would still be watching this kiddie show in our computer at the office. Then my teacher would wonder why I would then be arguing with the class about how the people in a certain nation should help each other and should not use unjust power to outrule others. That was so stupid of me. But the outcome was still fine. I got a 1.25 (1.0 is the highest) grade at the end of the semester. =)

I just bought a DVD disc of the complete set or series of this Nickelodeon show. It's from book 1 until book 3. I am at book 2 now. I am gonna finish watching this tonight since today is still my day off.

Way to go Saka, Katara, Tough and of course, the Avatar, Aang!!!!

business man with a dollar symbol
Originally uploaded by brian_hdrck

(this is an excerpt from my posted bulletin in friendster)

well well well...
it's never bad after all.
i just checked my google adsense account and I was amazed to see that i had already accumulated a total of
0.33$
from the google ads that's on my photoblog..
For how many weeks, the amount there just always stayed at 0$. I was loosing hope and thought that this google ads (adsense) thing is just totally garbage. But it isn't! I was like jumping off my feet when i saw those X.XX$ numbers....
I mean, come on'!
I am not actually after the numbers or the amount of money that i will get. It's the fulfillment that i feel after those tiring hours on the net trying to create that damn blog! =)
woooohhhhoooo...
I am hoping that you will also get to visit my site and provide me some feedback or comments.
I'll keep everybody posted!

Thanks,
Lance
www.punkies07.blogspot.com

{♥ I Keep Bleeding Love
Originally uploaded by »Hαяd to Gєτ« ™

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth. My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing.You cut me open and I.......KEEP BLEEDING. keep bleeding in LOVE.


I just really love the meaning of this song.

*great sigh*

tops, on top of the world, cebu city
Originally uploaded by punkies07-Lance

Just wanna greet myself a Happy 20th birthday. I missed this moment so much.

Go Away White
Originally uploaded by James Petrille

How i wish i could own a high-end 20MegaPixel Camera with 20 kinds of lenses. How i wish i could take 1 year day off at work and just go on tour around the world and take pictures using my high-end camera. How i wish I could bring my family, friends, and of course my girlfriend with me so I could take pictures about them. How i wish I could freeze the time and capture perfect moments. How I wish I will be the most awarded Photographer across the universe.

I wish!

*sigh*

yu
Originally uploaded by ___r___

hahahaha.. what a title!
I miss you so much beastfriend..
Hope to see you around here in Cebu..
Ako gf naa na diri cebu magwork..hehehehe ;)
keep in touch beast!

should have to buy new pair of shoes now
Originally uploaded by punkies07-Lance

I used this picture as my blog header. There are some updates there. I also signed up for Google Adsense so i could also earn from Google while I am enjoying filling out my online blogging diary. I am hoping i can develop this site and will be popular worldwide. Hahaha. I said it because it could be possible. Dream Far Lance!

MARK ONIR
Originally uploaded by ashcastro

First i would like to comment on the features of the picture.
1. Nice Eye Glasses. Kinky.
2. The Jacket / long sleeves... oh my... akoa nalng na bi..heheh
3. The shoes? hmm ok ra..
4. The background tell me something... (could be like in a church, meeting hall, or something)
5. The Jeans matched the sleeves.. nice!

Allright! Now let me talk about being a punk. Does this guy look a punk? I should say so. Punk doesn't just define Rock - as mistakenly understood by almost everyone. It's about being cool in black, being able to break the rules of typical styling and designs, and being unique in a very masculine way. I don't like it in an "emo" way. It's so gay! haha That's how i look at it. I'm actually trying my best to change my looks now, more to like a punky attitude. You see, i've had so much hassle now just to make my hair long enough, buy more and more punky stuff. Haayyyy.. so much for my crave about this. Thanks for the read! =)

Originally uploaded by BriannaGraham

Now don't think something green. COme on! don't you see the picture is nice.. It reminds me of my childhood bestfriends, Nonie and Chorzen. I miss you guys. Hope you're doing ok and that you may be able to pursue all your dreams in life.