Learning some Sweet Goodbyes

Can I go now?




Letting go has always been a doomed ending for me. I always hate to let go of things I already had been used to. Hope there would come a day when I could just say, "I don't want this, no more! I quit! (stomp feet, turn my back, leave.) But that's quite impossible for the kind of person like me. I am very picky or choosy when it comes to things that I choose to love or like and when I get to love it, am truly loving it - like mcdo. I feel sad when life tends to take it away from me.

However, this is not the time for me vent out my sad emotions. Life is a party, so let's rock! This what I call "The sudden change of Lance's status quo."

This post is not intended to be a sad one -- but this is serious. I don't want to be mean but I just don't think am the only one to blame. I had enough of my tears and my heart is already naive.

Never been a dumb dude, no am not dense. I just had a slight lack of common sense. I am just fighting for what I think is right. Ohhh, I remember our student publication's slogan when I was still on college - "we wanted to be liked, but we don't mind being hated if that's the price for telling the truth." And yes, I am telling the truths about my thoughts.

Darn! These stupid and mean love songs just suddenly make me feel strong. I just can't get over listening to them right now.


Can I go now? Yep, I need to go now. It hurts to say goodbye but I need to do this -- not for you but for myself. I don't need to exhaust myself in still trying to stick to this. "What's the point of trying to meet you in the middle? You got your point of view, there's nothing I can do. Can't change your mind, can't leave it all behind. You're living in the past! We talk and talk, discuss for hours. About how it should be - why is it all me? Don't wanna fight. Don't wanna waste my time. Baby just can't relax. I'm moving on, moving on. "



PS

I had gotten few feedbacks about my recent post on realizations, et al and it so much intrigue me which made me to think that I appeared to become a melancholic jerk and a darn looser to all that read it. Well, you know, not really. LOL! It was a nice realization and I am still living up to it. I changed, basically.



Then again, let me sing to you my farewell song...

Go on girl...
(listen till the end of the song - it's mean!)